“If something I am asked to do for another feels burdensome; if, yielding to an inward unwillingness, I avoid doing it,
then I know nothing of Calvary love.
If I put my own happiness before the well-being of the work entrusted to me;
then I know nothing of Calvary love.” ~Amy Carmichael
We have heard it countless times since we learned in August how badly the children in Katie’s orphanage had been neglected.
“I don’t understand how anyone could…!”
Have I ever felt that reluctant feeling rise up within me when I face an unpleasant duty?
Have I ever sighed inside when I had to walk away from a grown-up conversation to attend to the needs of a small person, again?
Have I ever felt weary just hearing about a large need?
Have I ever felt like saying, “I can’t worry about it, I have my own life to live, my own family to take care of?”
Have I ever felt that I don’t want things to change? That I like my life just the way it is?
Have I ever felt afraid of added responsibility?
Have I ever chosen the easier path?
Have I ever, even once, met my own needs at the expense of someone else rather than meeting their needs at my own expense?
The small, soft, easy choice. Many small choices that grow easier as they grow bigger.
Until, even when the stakes are high, we find it far too easy to say yes to self and no to sacrifice of self.
Too easy to justify a self-focused decision.
Too easy to say no to the desperate need of a tiny, helpless child.
Too easy to say no to Jesus when He calls to us,
“Whoever desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me. For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for My sake and the gospel’s will save it.“
We don’t understand how anyone could…?
I think we do.
I know I do.