Remember when I said that I was worried about making big mistakes?
Joe and I had just signed many official papers at the gleaming table in our attorney’s office, and had briefly told him about Katie.
“God bless you as you move forward,” said he. “This is a pretty significant undertaking, as I’m sure you realize.”
“Yes,” I answered, searching for words. “But we have seen God’s hand so clearly during this adoption process. There is no way we could have engineered it ourselves. We know that the task before us looms huge and overwhelming. But we know that God will not abandon us now.”
Joe and I went on to have a lovely date night together, purchasing several items we will need for the weeks ahead. We returned home quite late, and while I got ready for bed, Joe sat down to update our adoption finances page and look over the most important emails.
It was then he discovered that I had accidentally written the large check for our adoption attorney’s final fee from the wrong checking account. The checks and checkbooks look identical, and I had been flustered at the time. We were under pressure from the social worker at our adoption agency to get the check written and overnighted to them immediately. During those communications, I had accidentally caused a misunderstanding with someone very dear to me, and it was weighing heavily on my heart.
The checkbook I used was not the adoption checkbook. It was for the family checking account, and Joe keeps a lower balance in that one.
Yes, it really happened.
I, Susanna Musser, wrote a bad check. Like the people on those lists taped to the cash register at the grocery store.
Joe was very kind to his downcast wife. The wife who wants to be like the woman in Proverbs 31 when she grows up. The heart of the Proverbs 31 woman’s husband safely trusts her, so he will have no lack of gain. Overdrawing his bank account for the first time in his life? Incurring penalties? Doesn’t sound like something a P31 woman does. Not even if her lamp does not go out at night and she rises while it is still night (also known as Burning the Candle at Both Ends).
He was up past midnight, planning out the best strategy, and writing down instructions for me to carry out first thing in the morning. Call these folks first, and if they say…then…and you will need to go right away to…
I was worried. How could I have made this mistake? What other mistakes might I unknowingly commit?
I was awakened abruptly the next morning by the door bursting open and the words, “I found another problem.”
In disbelief, I made my eyes focus on the computer screen.
The travel agent had even asked me specifically if the dates were correct.
I remember scrutinizing the four stopover times carefully to make sure they were sufficiently generous. I don’t remember the dates even registering in my mind.
But there they were in black and white. Wrong dates.
We found out that the airline charges $150 per ticket to change the itinerary after payment was made.
My head was in my hands, and I fought tears. I can’t believe this. What is wrong with me? What next?
We talked it over quickly, and Joe headed out the door for work.
Immediately, I emailed our travel agent from Golden Rule Travel, explained the situation, and asked him what we should do next.
And waited with a very heavy heart. My own words from the day before rang in my ears, “But we know that God will not abandon us now.”
Now I was feeling unprotected. What trouble would I accidentally cause next? Who would I harm next with my mistakes?
Why, O God, are you allowing this to happen? Have I been disobedient in some way? Please show me if there is some cause in me for You to be displeased. Please reassure me that You are still with us. I need to hear from You! O God, we cannot do this without You!!
Tidbits of the ensuing exchange with our travel agent~
Good morning, I received your email and I can understand that you have a lot going on right now.
I am able to void your tickets from yesterday and I do have a similar schedule for a departure on the 10th.
Because of your situation and the needs that Katerina has I am waiving the $50.00 change fee per ticket we usually have for voiding tickets.
[…in shock, and not sure I am understanding what he just wrote…] Does this mean that we don’t owe an extra fee to the airline?
because you caught this within 24 hrs, we can change it without the airline penalty.
We generally have a $50.00 fee to void and reissue if it is not agent error, but considering everything, I am waiving that as well.
I figured you may have had a rough night…. just glad that we can get this changed for you and that there was good space available.
I take this as a go ahead to reissue per the itinerary I sent?
Her story really touched my heart.
Blessings as you continue planning and preparing and then make the adjustments that I am sure need to come.
My Father had answered me.
My daughter, you have learned that the power of man does not trump My power. I allowed these mistakes to show you that this is true for you, too. You do not need to fear anything at all, not even your own mistakes. I have My Hand on this.
“For the mountains shall depart, and the hills be removed, but My kindness shall not depart from you, nor shall My covenant of peace be removed,” says the LORD, who has mercy on you.
“O you afflicted one, tossed with tempest, and not comforted, behold, I will lay your stones with colorful gems, and lay your foundations with sapphires. I will make your pinnacles of rubies, your gates of crystal, and all your walls of precious stones.
All your children shall be taught by the LORD, and great shall be the peace of your children.
In righteousness you shall be established; you shall be far from oppression, for you shall not fear; and from terror, for it shall not come near you.
Indeed they shall surely assemble, but not because of Me. Whoever assembles against you shall fall for your sake.
Behold, I have created the blacksmith who blows the coals in the fire, who brings forth an instrument for his work; and I have created the spoiler to destroy. No weapon formed against you shall prosper, and every tongue which rises against you in judgment you shall condemn.”
“This is the heritage of the servants of the LORD, and their righteousness is from Me,” says the LORD.