Dear little Verity,
Today you had one candle on your cake.
That’s supposed to mean you were born one year ago.
But really, you were still safely tucked inside my belly one year ago tonight.
And on that night, the night before you were born, I had one fear left inside my heart.
Not many knew about that fear…just Daddy, a close friend, my sister, and Jesus.
I was afraid that right after you were born…
…I would cry.
You see, I cry when really, really huge, important things happen. Too huge for me to take in easily.
I cry when those huge, important things are very, very wrong, but…
…I also cry when those huge, important things are very, very right.
I knew that your birth would be the start of something huge, important, and very, very right.
But I was afraid that my crying would tell the people around me something that wasn’t true.
What if they saw me crying and thought I was sad about you??
How could anyone ever be sad about you, lil’ sweet pea person??
So one year ago tonight, I prayed that God would use me to show everyone around us…
…just how much True Joy He could send along with that magical extra chromosome, Verity Joy…
…for those with eyes to see and hearts to receive…
…and that your birth was very, very right.
With more love than I ever knew was possible,
P.S. And did He ever give a tremendous yes to my puny little prayer.
Thank You, Jesus.