Only what’s done for Christ…

May 5th, 2011

I have a confession to make before I write anything else.

Knowing that my reason for doing something will affect how I do it…

…this week I dug down into why I was feeling so cranky about this yard sale.  I know that God’s will for me is that I embrace every assignment He gives me with joy, out of love for Christ! So when I feel tendrils of resentment curling into my emotions, it is a warning that something is wrong in my heart.

I was convicted by this little motto, which hung on my parents’ wall all through my growing-up years~

Or in other words,

“For no other foundation can anyone lay than that which is laid, which is Jesus Christ.  Now if anyone builds on this foundation with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw, each one’s work will become clear; for the Day will declare it, because it will be revealed by fire; and the fire will test each one’s work, of what sort it is.

If the work that anyone has built on the foundation survives, he will receive a reward.  If anyone’s work is burned up, he himself will be saved, but only as through fire.”

What you do not know is that we had previously considered all the pros and cons of a yard sale.  Joe left the decision up to me.  I decided that we would not come up with enough stuff to make all the time and effort worthwhile.  I am a dedicated purger, you see.  A trait that comes in handy when one lives in cozy quarters with many other people.  But it doesn’t leave much extra behind for selling at yard sales.

“No yard sale,” I said, and moved on.

Just about then Anonymous wrote her series of critical notes misunderstanding the story God was writing with our adoption finances.  The part of the story she looked at briefly, that is.  During that time period, I was already struggling with an enormous sense of obligation to all you wonderful givers.  I was feeling crushed between your large gifts on the one side, and the impossibility of controlling the outcome of your investment on the other side.  This is a new experience for us, and frankly, one our human pride would never have chosen.  We have been forced to go back again and again to the truth that GOD is in charge, and that HE has the right to craft every detail of this story as HE pleases, whether it feels comfortable to us, or not.  And rejoice in how HE decides to tell it!

I am ashamed to say that I was building this yard sale out of wood, hay, straw.  The reason I changed my mind and decided to go ahead with it was because I felt pressured to prove that we were working hard and sacrificing to bring Katerina home.

Which of course is a pitifully unworthy reason to do anything.  And not surprisingly sprouted those tendrils of resentment that are always unbecoming to a daughter of the King.

So after confessing it to the Lord and asking Him to forgive me and restore joy to my heart, I am ready to wholeheartedly throw myself into this yard sale with gusto.  Whatever sacrifices we have made to bring about this yard sale I now deliberately and gladly offer to Him.

We are praying as a family that He would be pleased to use our little yard sale for greater purposes.  May He make it into gold, silver, precious stones.

Speaking of gusto…bet you didn’t think I was serious about the baseball bat and kitchen cupboards…

Nice pose there, hon, but you didn’t think you were going to get very far with a baseball bat, did you?

Let’s try the sledgehammer…

Yes, I know, I hit like a girl!

And THAT, my friends, was fun.

And I have two wonders to share with you tonight!

One is named Verity.

You’ve seen her before.

But we haven’t gotten over her yet!

She loves to sleep with her legs anchored between the crib slats~

She always wakes up cheerful~

And ready to go outside and have some more summertime adventures~

 

The other wonder?

We heard back from Lifesong this evening about their matching grant…

“Wahoo! YOU MADE IT!  :)

Check it out!

PRAISE GOD!”

Some of you brothers and sisters already knew this news, because you responded to the prompting of the Holy Spirit, and gave at the eleventh hour.  Joe will update the finances page before he sleeps tonight.

We are thanking God, and thanking you wonderful givers!!!  Our hearts are full!!!

 

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9 Responses to “Only what’s done for Christ…”

  1. Shauna says:

    Reagan does the same thing when she sleeps :)  We will pray that your yard sale is a blessing and yay for the matching!

  2. Ilisa says:

    I love the pictures and learning about Verity’s personality :)

  3. Stephanie says:

    I’m praying the same prayer I told Jen, I was praying for her yard sale: 

    KNOW that we are praying from here. I’m praying for God to bless your yardsale in a mighty way.. and that the proceeds will EXCEED your hopes and that SO many become more aware of the plight of the orphan! I’m even praying that perhaps the Holy Spirit will speak to SOMEONE’S heart about adoption that comes in contact with you through the yardsale or perhaps someone accepts Christ as a result of your yardsale. How is that for LARGE expectations for an alive and moving God!

  4. Felicity says:

    I love the second last photo of Verity – those cheeks are adorable!
    Looking forward to reading more of this wonderful story that the Lord is writing through you!

  5. Angiedawn says:

    I smiled at these pictures.I never expected you to really take a sledge hammer to those things!!!!!!! lol AND Verity is as precious as always! I am so glad to keep hearing all of these wonderful updates about the adoption!!!!

  6. Kim Zim says:

    Susanna — you know what ONE of the things we readers LOVE about you??  Your honesty!!  You keep us coming back b/c you’re “true to life”!!  We can relate on many levels.  Real life isn’t always a bed of roses.  You share with us those real life things like  aknowledging weakness’, sharing frustrations and  many times it strikes a chord within us!   But the inspiring part come when you also share how God can use those weakness’ and frustration in a mighty and powerful way!  Helps us to reflect on our own lives and take inventory.  Thanks Susanna from us, your readers for taking the time and energy to share what God is doing in and through you and your family!  We appreciate YOU!  Happy Mother’s Day my friend :)

  7. Kim Zim says:

    P.S.  I too think the 2nd to last picture of Verity girl is exceptional!!!

  8. Kendra says:

    DITTO what my friend Kim said!! LOL  God has given you many gifts Susanna and I am blessed by what you share so honestly!
     

  9. Sweet picture of Verity! as usual! :)  Praise God about the matching and also about the yard sale!  The Lord is blessing!

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