I have a confession to make before I write anything else.
Knowing that my reason for doing something will affect how I do it…
…this week I dug down into why I was feeling so cranky about this yard sale. I know that God’s will for me is that I embrace every assignment He gives me with joy, out of love for Christ! So when I feel tendrils of resentment curling into my emotions, it is a warning that something is wrong in my heart.
I was convicted by this little motto, which hung on my parents’ wall all through my growing-up years~
Or in other words,
“For no other foundation can anyone lay than that which is laid, which is Jesus Christ. Now if anyone builds on this foundation with gold, silver, precious stones, wood, hay, straw, each one’s work will become clear; for the Day will declare it, because it will be revealed by fire; and the fire will test each one’s work, of what sort it is.
If the work that anyone has built on the foundation survives, he will receive a reward. If anyone’s work is burned up, he himself will be saved, but only as through fire.”
What you do not know is that we had previously considered all the pros and cons of a yard sale. Joe left the decision up to me. I decided that we would not come up with enough stuff to make all the time and effort worthwhile. I am a dedicated purger, you see. A trait that comes in handy when one lives in cozy quarters with many other people. But it doesn’t leave much extra behind for selling at yard sales.
“No yard sale,” I said, and moved on.
Just about then Anonymous wrote her series of critical notes misunderstanding the story God was writing with our adoption finances. The part of the story she looked at briefly, that is. During that time period, I was already struggling with an enormous sense of obligation to all you wonderful givers. I was feeling crushed between your large gifts on the one side, and the impossibility of controlling the outcome of your investment on the other side. This is a new experience for us, and frankly, one our human pride would never have chosen. We have been forced to go back again and again to the truth that GOD is in charge, and that HE has the right to craft every detail of this story as HE pleases, whether it feels comfortable to us, or not. And rejoice in how HE decides to tell it!
I am ashamed to say that I was building this yard sale out of wood, hay, straw. The reason I changed my mind and decided to go ahead with it was because I felt pressured to prove that we were working hard and sacrificing to bring Katerina home.
Which of course is a pitifully unworthy reason to do anything. And not surprisingly sprouted those tendrils of resentment that are always unbecoming to a daughter of the King.
So after confessing it to the Lord and asking Him to forgive me and restore joy to my heart, I am ready to wholeheartedly throw myself into this yard sale with gusto. Whatever sacrifices we have made to bring about this yard sale I now deliberately and gladly offer to Him.
We are praying as a family that He would be pleased to use our little yard sale for greater purposes. May He make it into gold, silver, precious stones.
Speaking of gusto…bet you didn’t think I was serious about the baseball bat and kitchen cupboards…
Nice pose there, hon, but you didn’t think you were going to get very far with a baseball bat, did you?
Let’s try the sledgehammer…
Yes, I know, I hit like a girl!
And THAT, my friends, was fun.
And I have two wonders to share with you tonight!
One is named Verity.
You’ve seen her before.
But we haven’t gotten over her yet!
She loves to sleep with her legs anchored between the crib slats~
She always wakes up cheerful~
And ready to go outside and have some more summertime adventures~
The other wonder?
We heard back from Lifesong this evening about their matching grant…
“Wahoo! YOU MADE IT! :)
Check it out!
Some of you brothers and sisters already knew this news, because you responded to the prompting of the Holy Spirit, and gave at the eleventh hour. Joe will update the finances page before he sleeps tonight.
We are thanking God, and thanking you wonderful givers!!! Our hearts are full!!!