The experienced adoptive mom who wrote this to me…
“Susanna, our homestudy visit was one of the scariest moments in our adoption process, until it happened, then it wasn’t so bad.”
Not bad at all. In fact, it was fun!
After lunch Joe and I had a pleasant telephone conversation with Jana from Lifeline. We found out that some very large fees will be coming due very shortly!
And then the excitement was over. I realized that I was tired!
So I took a break from thinking about the adoption.
I went out to the playgarden room to enjoy being one of these…
…by relaxing with some of these…
…cute little boy-people…
…and making them do this…
…while holding a sleeping one of these…
…instead of writing an update here for all of you.
But that’s okay, because of what I have to tell you next!
After we tucked all those cute little creatures into bed tonight, and puttered around doing some small chores at the end of the day, my mind went inexorably to the next adoption task. It wasn’t long before I remembered to ask Joe how much money we have in the bank for tomorrow.
He figured it out.
The amount we had fell short!
We’d had a friend offer to loan us a large sum of money, and we knew that we could use some of it to make up the difference. Until then, we had not needed to consider borrowing any of that.
We talked it over.
And came to the conclusion that we are going to stick with what we said at first. God will lead by what He provides. We are not going to circumvent His leading by going against our better judgment and borrowing, no matter how kind the offer was. And it was kind!
So if God provided the funds by tomorrow, we would commit to this little girl tomorrow. If He did not provide them by tomorrow, we would wait until He did provide.
We talked about the other large fees that are coming soon. They are adding up fast! And it is impossible for us to pay any of them!
Then we reminded each other that God could as easily provide $100 as $5000. We will wait on HIM. We will look to HIM, not to ourselves or others. We are ready to move when He says “Move,” or wait when He says, “Wait!”
I did not feel free to ask God to provide the money by tomorrow. He knows better than we do exactly what needs to happen and when!
As I worked on combing and braiding the girls’ hair before their bedtime, I mentally laid the situation down before Him and left it there, chatting with the girls.
A moment later, Joe came into the room and put his hands on my shoulders and said, “Drop that comb and come here and look at this! Here’s our answer about tomorrow!”
The email from our dear friends stated, “We don’t know if you have received all you need for tomorrow, but we want to contribute $250 to be added to the total.”
I called them immediately to explain the significance of what they had just done! Of course I didn’t get far before the tears came, too!
We want to publicly thank the five families who just sent us money gifts for this adoption. We recognize that for you to give at this point in the process was truly an act of faith. You acted in faith and obedience to the prompting of the Holy Spirit. He directly used your obedience to lead us to officially commit to this little girl tomorrow. Thank you. May He pay you back many times over what you have just given to Him.
Thank You, Heavenly Father, for keeping Your promise to us to make our way plain. We worship You.