“Nothing exceeds thy power, nothing is too great for thee to do, nothing too good for thee to give. I ask great things of a great God.” ~The Valley of Vision
One of the uncomfortable blessings of this journey with Verity has been the opportunity to grow up. Part of what has made it uncomfortable, and a blessing, is that God has been telling her story to a large audience.
Once in a while, He allows us a very rewarding glimpse into what He is doing with this story He is writing in our lives. Once in a while we even get to hear that God has opened someone’s heart to a child with Down syndrome, either by birth or by adoption, or both.
All these elements–the discomfort, the growing up, the audience, Verity’s story, the opening of the heart–came together for me last night in a single devastating moment. There is a God-ignited fire in my heart now, and may it never be snuffed out.
Do you remember what Joe told me the day after we heard the news of Verity’s Down syndrome and heart defect?
“He told me that for all the years that we’d had the name Verity, meaning “truth,” chosen for our next daughter, he’d had an idea in the back of his mind that this child’s story would not be ordinary. He wondered if it would be a picture to us of how Truth and this present world cannot peacefully co-exist. He said that while we have talked about adopting children that nobody else wants, God knew that he probably would not ever have had the courage to take the first step. Maybe this was God’s way of preparing our family to do that someday.”
Honestly, the human side of me hesitates to continue writing. What if…well…a whole bunch of things? But God has clearly decided to make this part of our story, so grow up, Susanna.
I wrote the following note less than two weeks ago to an online friend. She was lamenting her small house and the great need for adoptive families for children who have been abandoned because they have Down syndrome.***
“Maybe just one child, C. Could you fit just one more in your house? I don’t know how big your house is, but I like thinking of the possibilities and not the obstacles. I’ve seen God pour out money like water when He was good and ready, so I know He can do that, too. If it’s in your heart, maybe there’s a reason for that.
Plus, if we wait for ideal, it may never come, and our situations are a lot closer to ideal than anything these little ones may ever know.
(How’s that for a pep talk!? We’d love to do this someday.)”
Hear my light and bouncy tone at the end there? That is the tone of one who doesn’t know, who has distance between herself and reality.
Please read what I read and see what I saw last night. See the true result of godlessness in a place where there is insufficient money to whitewash the ugly horror of man’s sin against the least of these. They are doing it to Jesus.
May our hearts break with His heart. May He light a fire in us that never goes out.
P.S. It is nothing for God to increase income or move people to bigger houses when He has a good reason for it.
<Deep breath. Give it to God. Click the Publish button.>