I will carry you

July 9th, 2010

Thank the Lord, we could see improvement in Verity after her second dose of Lasix this morning.  By this afternoon she had worked her way back up to full feeding amounts, all breastmilk by bottle with fortifier added.   Last night it was still taking her half an hour to get half an ounce.  After hearing her suck a dozen times for every swallow, I finally took my scissors to the bottle nipples and made those “fast-flow” holes faster.  That helped.

The fortifier from the pharmacy ended up costing $90 for the box of 50 packets.  Total weight 1.55 ounces.  It’s probably the most valuable commodity we own at this point!  Joe did order some over the internet for the lower price, but we ran out of what the doctor sent, so we needed some to hold her over until the UPS man delivers the rest.

Her abdomen had been very swollen, and that has gone back down.  It’s still enlarged because of her liver, but at least her skin isn’t stretched tightly as it had been!

She is having awake and alert times again, and making more eye contact.  She starts out good and strong at mealtime now~

I can tell when she starts to wear out, because she takes more breaks and avoids eye contact~

By the time she gets down to the last half ounce, her eyes are firmly closed and I have to coax every suck out of her~

That last half ounce takes her just as long as the first two ounces!  By this point, she’d just about had it!  But in the end, Verity scored 2 1/2 and the bottle scored 0!  Verity won!  Good work, baby girl!

Some of you were praying that I would get rest today after yesterday’s shenanigans.  Thank you!  I did get a solid, two hour nap!

You know, when I look at these pictures and think back through Verity’s story, I see our weakness, our waverings, our failures.  But I also see God’s faithfulness, His goodness, His grace, His strength.  No matter what may be ahead for us, the character of God, our God, can not and will not change.  He has lifted us up and carries us on His shoulders, and we are not a burden to Him.

“Listen to me, O house of Jacob, and all the remnant of the house of Israel, who have been upheld by Me from birth, who have been carried from the womb:

Even to your old age, I am He, and even to gray hairs I will carry you!

I have made, and I will bear; even I will carry, and will deliver you.”

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11 Responses to “I will carry you”

  1. Marilyn Osborn says:

    Love these posts……THANK YOU for taking the time to share!  The Lord is using it to touch my heart in a deep way……

  2. Awwwww, bless her little heart! She is just precious!

  3. Angiedawn says:

    Excellent!!!!!!! I am so so happy you can tell a difference!

    I love the pictures of you feeding Verity! You look so beautiful!!!

  4. Shari~hotfudgecustard says:

    Praise the Lord for improvement in her energy level. 

    I look back at pictures of our twins’ newborn days and remember the sensation of the Lord carrying us.  It’s like floating down a river.  You have that experience, too.

    God is so good.

    Still, I am praying for you.  And Verity.  And Joe.  And all the kids.

  5. greta says:

    Ditto all the previous comments!

  6. Wow! So expensive….is that something your insurance will help you with? Such beautiful pictures!

  7. Ditto all of the above!!  Thank you for sharing precious Verity with us.  (((hugs to you, mama)))

  8. Amy Morris says:


    I thought this may be worth checking out, I love the blog. We have been praying for your family for some time now and are blessed by hearing how God is working. Love and prayers. Hope I can meet the little one soon. 

  9. Susanna says:

    Amy, thank you!  That does look promising!

  10. Susanna says:

    Amy, GUESS WHAT?  They were selling the two boxes of 100 packets each for $100, but after we saw that they had gotten it free from the hospital, we explained our situation and made them an offer of $75 for both boxes, and THEY ACCEPTED IT!  PTL!  That’s a ten day supply! Thank you so much for checking that out for us and taking time to let us know about it!  God used you to bless us!

  11. Rebecca says:

    Your story has blessed me.  Thank you for this blog!  My 4 year old daughter came up and saw Verity on the screen and said “Aww Mommy!  That’s a pretty baby!  We should get that baby!”  I had to explain that she already had a family who loved her so we couldn’t have her.  LOL

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