And you can put that on my tombstone…

April 8th, 2010

Is this really all it takes?  Joe not feeling well, our oldest being gone for the week, our second oldest working every evening, a few extra tasks on my to-do list, an extra twenty degrees making me feel like I am fifty pounds heavier and sluggish in body and mind…and suddenly irritability is fighting with joy for first place.

My strength definitely dries up in the heat of summer, especially during pregnancy!  But I can’t rest, or we will fall behind!  And we can’t fall behind, because this is our last full week of school, and we’re going away next week.  There are people depending on my ability to keep everything organized and accomplished, and my body and mind are rebelling!  Aaaaargh!

As I live my life these days, I keep evaluating my responses to the daily inconveniences.  If I am struggling with this, how will I ever handle what is ahead?  My strength is so small.

In reality, there is such a thing as true hardship, and I have never experienced it.  And if God in His providence had given me misery as my lot, would I then be justified in murmuring and complaining in my spirit, rather than counting it all joy?  Job didn’t think so.

There’s this verse I’ve gone back to for years when I feel like I just can’t do all I need to, and do it cheerfully.  The reason I keep going back to it is to make sure it is still there, still stating the same bold promise~

“He who calls you is faithful, who also will do it.”

“He who calls you is faithful, who also will do it.

Susanna, He who calls you is faithful, who also will do it!

I don’t know exactly how this is playing out in the day-to-day.  Knowing myself, and knowing the magnitude of the task that He has given me, it is impossible for one little me to accomplish it in any way that even approaches perfection.  But I am pinning all my hopes on this promise.  Not only is He able to do the impossible, I have His word on it that He will take my obedience and do the impossible with it.  He is doing this right now!

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