Hard is Not Bad

February 21st, 2010

I see pregnancy as a God-given time of preparation.  As I go about the day, I can visualize how the coming baby will fit into our family rhythm.   I have new eyes to see the weak spots in the household.  I have time to focus on training the children in new skills.  As the time gets closer, I plan ahead for the new routine, and start to make little adjustments to help things go more smoothly afterward.

But this time I am at a loss.  How do I prepare for something when all I know is that it will be different from what I know?!

Over the past few days that this question has been simmering in my thoughts, God has slowly been opening my eyes to the fact that He has a plan for what needs to change.  Me.

As I go about the day, I am convicted at the numerous times that my SELF rises up within me against small disappointments, small inconveniences, small difficulties, small embarrassments.  Every time I react in this way, I am really saying, “I believe that I deserve to live a life with no hardships.  I shouldn’t have to put up with this.  Hard is bad.  Easy is good.”

If I always got my own way, would I ever choose trouble?  If I could, wouldn’t I choose for each day to run smoothly, our children to always be perfectly loving to one another and honoring to their parents, for nothing to get broken and need to be fixed or replaced, for no messes to be made, for no interruptions to our daily routine or weekly plan, for no uglies or imperfections to show themselves in life?

But this is what God says about me wanting my own way:

“All we like sheep have gone astray; we have turned every one to his own way; and the LORD has laid on Him the iniquity of us all.”

My opinions…my plans…my ideas…my preferences…my agenda…

What feels good to me…what is convenient for me…what works for me

WANTING MY OWN WAY

This is what Jesus died to save me from.  This is sin.

When God stops me from getting my own way, He is loving me.  Hard things are the tools He is using to conform me into the image of Jesus!

Hard is not bad.  It is my Father disciplining me for my good, that I may share His holiness.  It is a perfect gift from my Father to me.

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3 Responses to “Hard is Not Bad”

  1. greta says:

    You have articulated this so well, Susanna- and I thank God for your giftedness and openness-…. I really struggle with this matter in the sense that I feel I should have things in a certain way…in a certain order….and this reflects that I am not allowing God to set the way and to truly trust Him with the details. He just wants my heart to submit to Him and then I will be able to see His will put in place (and I am sure this is a much more peaceful route too!). Oh, and am I a slow learner!

  2. Can I say, “me too!”?

    Love and hugs,
    Rebecca

  3. Marci says:

    Susanna,
    I am so thankful to God that He has placed your family on this path and that you are willingly walking it. Please know that while I am not putting any pressure on you to “be spiritual,” and teach me what you are learning through this, I am so thankful that I know you and that you are allowing yourself to be teachable and to share your heart with us (me).
    Love you so much!!
    Marci

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